October, as leaves fall patiently

It’s a wonderful thought to be had
probably because I said something infantile,
as we wallow in each other
and the coziness of cloudy October days,
while breaking through the ingrained pattern of generations
and deciding what is best for us.

Could it be that this idea of healing is a seed
that has been planted within us?
The kind that takes a long time to gestate
when we seek to challenge the uselessness of systems
and return as chrysanthemums
to the fundamental questions that define our being
in this world–
some won’t understand the metamorphosis
that takes place in us,
as we reason with sensibility, make peace with the past
and the present.

I kiss my way through pain and confusion,
longing for simplicity in times of sophistication–
deep into your waters
there exists a voice that beckons to the rebel inside of me.
I embrace darkened innocence
ignoring the cries of bygone summers that state otherwise,
time has added more dimensions to my being,
taught me
to cherish joy when it’s found.

Caressed by the sun I stare into the end of beginning,
whenever
I am doubtful of the raindrops in my life
and though vulnerability is my strongest pursuit in writing
at times the sky opens up and swallows me whole.
I am the gospel of Autumn as I search for truth that’s present
in the universe
as I feel uncertainty and learn to experience without dread,
it’s all right to let go.

 

Photo credits: Pinterest

Posted for ‘Kerry’s Challenge’ @ Real Toads

& Posted on ‘Poetry Pantry’ @ Poets United

38 thoughts on “October, as leaves fall patiently

  1. Jae Rose says:

    There is a great sense of personal growth in these beautiful words

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Jae πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it ❀️

  2. Kerry says:

    I always love to read your poetry on your blog, on a wide screen rather than on my phone. Your lines are so richly developed, they need to fill the whole page. I love your transitional, seasonal poems – this is imbued with a wonderful mix of sensory images.

    “I am the gospel of Autumn as I search for truth…”

    Are we not all searching for the truth in the post-truth era?

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Kerry 😍 so glad you enjoyed it ❀️

      (and thank you for the glorious prompt) 🌹

  3. I love “Time has added more dimensions to my being.” Each generation has to make its own choices, forge its own path. I think leaves teach us a lot about letting go. Sometimes, if we stop trying to steer and swirl in the current of today, it takes us gently right where we are meant to be. Smiles.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Sherry πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

  4. HA says:

    Your tender words and sensitive images are becoming of your honesty and truth here, Sanaa. It is such an evocative verse about metamorphosis, its needs, its natural workings, its reach and its impact.
    This is so well said:
    “time has added more dimensions to my being,
    taught me
    to cherish joy when it’s found.”

    1. Sanaa says:

      Awwww gosh! ❀️ Thank you so much, Anmol πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it! ❀️

  5. Debi Swim says:

    “I am the gospel of Autumn as I search for truth that’s present in the universe”
    wow Your poem is beautiful, Sanaa.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Debi πŸ˜€ so glad you enjoyed it ❀️

  6. Bjorn Rudberg says:

    As usual I think you come up with the perfect conclusion… in your search… sometimes .. it’s better to let go.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Bjorn πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

  7. Old Egg says:

    It is always a delight to read your words Sanaa and this poem is really outstanding. May you too cherish joy when you find it!

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Robin πŸ˜€ so good to see you ❀️

  8. Apologies for the somewhat late comment, Sanaa, but better late than never! I love the idea of healing as a seed that has been planted within us, and that we might return as chrysanthemums, and of kiss one’s way through pain and confusion.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Kim πŸ˜€ so glad you enjoyed it ❀️

  9. Toni Spencer says:

    It is best to let go sometimes. A very romantic metamodernist poem.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Toni πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it ❀️

  10. Yes to both cherishing joy when it’s found and letting go when it’s time. I like the growth in wisdom evident here. And I love ‘the idea of healing’ as a seed ‘planted within us’ and taking ‘a long time to gestate’.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Rosemary πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

  11. Thotpurge says:

    return as chrysanthemums
    to the fundamental questions – that’s a great image, Sanaa… nicely done.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Rajani πŸ˜€ so glad you enjoyed it ❀️

  12. Jim says:

    Some things don’t heal. I have one. You have lined out a nice formula for a part of living very nicely.
    ..

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Jim πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it ❀️

  13. Vivian Zems says:

    I held my breath whilst reading this. The flow of words and your introspection is sublime. ❀️

    1. Sanaa says:

      Awww gosh! ❀️ Thank you so much, Vivian πŸ˜€ so glad you enjoyed it! ❀️

  14. “Could it be that this idea of healing is a seed
    that has been planted within us?”

    Yes! Yes, it could. And I think that it certainly is. A seed, which only our will and want and blood can grow.

    Love the imagery planted in those lines.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Magaly πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

  15. I love your closing stanza here–the vulnerability of it especially–the fact that when we let go, we fly free–your writing is so eloquent–

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Audrey πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it ❀️

  16. Susan says:

    To let go without dread–in a safe place for sure! This tender poem raises such important questions, all along showing the narrator has the wisdom to seek the answers–with kisses, too. I love this:
    “. . . when we seek to challenge the uselessness of systems
    and return as chrysanthemums . . . “

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Susan πŸ˜€ so glad you enjoyed it ❀️

  17. If healing is a seed that is planted within us, then I’m all for the notion that every one of us has within us exactly what we need to heal. We will need air, and light, and water, of course, but the healing can begin.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, MMT πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

  18. Barry says:

    I probably sound like a broken record, but each time I read your work I am blown away by the clarity and strength in your voice. Each time I leave thinking that was the best I’ve ever read from you, and then I return to have you blow my doors off all over again.

    This is exceptional writing, and I feel as if I’m learning about you all over again.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Barry πŸ˜€ so glad you liked it ❀️

  19. Rommy says:

    I like how this piece speaks to me of growth, and how it is possible to look on memories fondly while still realizing it’s best that it’s all in the past now.

    1. Sanaa says:

      Thank you so much, Rommy πŸ˜€ so glad the poem resonated with you ❀️

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